Rain: My feeling

I love Singapore because it's rainy over here.

I like the rain, but I hate the feeling of enjoying the rain alone. I'm getting a little miss-ing you type of feeling again.

It's 11 days gone for your holidays and now you're back in the camp again.

My dear, I know it's going to be hard on you for you are all alone in the vocation. But promise me you will be strong and hang on.

I know it's tiring to think of the future for both of us, to save up for our wedding and to make me a happy bride.

But for me, nothing matters except your own health. Promise me you will stay healthy for me. I don't want to see you down, or gone.

I want to enjoy the rain with you, to walk in the weather, just holding your warm hands so tightly that I can feel extremely secure. I can just sit on the bench near the beach and watch the waves coming in and forth and lie on your shoulder and just rest my eyes in peace.

I know you are disappointed at yourself for not making it but my dear, you've lost 10kgs in the whole BMT and you're excelling in all the stations except standing board jump and I can say, I'm proud of you no matter what.

And like how you once said before, the enjoyment of the rain is not just looking out of the window directly but to face the sky and look at the rain dropping down. To let the raindrops fall on your face, that's the enjoyment of looking at the rain.

We belong together.

"I only think of you on two occasions. That's day and night."

One fine day, I suddenly heard this song on my MP3 "We belong together - remix" by Mariah Carey and heard this particular part that I feel was really sweet.

So happily, I went to tell Mr. Bambam. Conversation was roughly as follows:

Me: "I only think of you on two occasions lehs."

Him: "o.O when?"

Me: "That's day and night. So this means I am thinking of you always."

Him: "Oh.. Really? Hmm..."

Me: "Hehe" *So happy that I am so sweet to him*

Suddenly,

Him: "I also think of you on two occasions only."

Me: "Ehh, you cannot copy me one. Blehs."

Him: "Noo, my is not the same. I think of you when I breathe in and breathe out. That is much more than you think of me. :)"

Me: "...... power..."

In fact, it's kinda sweet though :) I love you, Mr. Bambam

I LOVE YOU

This is too cute to be missed :)

Mr. Bambam's POP Day

My Bambam has POP-ed! Haha, it's actually last week thingy but I have not blogged about it.

I took leave for the 2 days to accompany him. His POP was very nice, except the fact that the whole family + me mistook another person as him and took pictures for the wrong guy. *Pengz* Really fainting sia.

So, I promised Mr. Bambam that if he buy a DSR camera

for me, I will zooooooom in and take pictures of him for the passing out vocational thingy. I swear I won't see wrong since I can zoom x alot alre

ady.

Anyways, let photographs do the speaking instead of me typing :)

SICK!

Never felt so sick before. Was in bed for 2 whole days. Can you imagine that??

Thursday not feeling well already, went home and slept exactly at 10pm, didn't even bother to bathe. At about 2am, I woke up feeling very hot. Went into mummy room and ask her did I have a fever, she say no have la, anyhow say.

I went back to sleep. About 30 minutes later, stomach felt abit discomfort, rushed into the toilet and puke. Saw some black coloured item coming out, unsure what it is. Went back to sleep, not long later, same thing happen. Went to the toilet to puke, same black coloured thingy.

Mum ask me did I eat the food on the table last night, I say yes, the mushroom, she scold me. She say that is leftover food, cannot eat one. Now I know what is that black coloured thingy already, it's mushroom.

Mum scold dad also cause dad never throw away the food and left it on the table. Feel very very uncomfortable. Puke the 3rd time. Morning came, everyone went to work. I'm alone at home.

I felt very very very sick, I can't even pull myself out of bed and go see doctor. Called mummy and cried. She ask Ah ma and Ah gong to bring me go see doc.

Have a fever, food poisoning, thoart infection, cold. Argh, feel so cold.

Went back ah ma house and sleep. Whole day never eat anything, no appetite. Ah ma help me put cold water on my body to make my temperature go down.

Went home, mummy cover me with 4 blankets, I keep sweat and sweat, about midnight like that felt a bit better, next morning went out to see chinese doc.

Came home, vomitted again. :'(

Fever came back, no mood but keep sleep again, this time is my Mr. Bambam with me cus my whole family went out.

Mr. Bambam spend the entire night last night to sponge me with cold water, in hope of my fever go away. Every 5 seconds help me change water, help me use the towel and wipe my hands + legs.

My fever still no go, but he still keep help me sponge my body. Every half an hour ask me wake up drink more water and eat medicine when the time reached. At about 11pm, my body temperature dropped finally. Mr. Bambam too tired, slept on the floor. I went to toilet saw him sleep there, so I went to take pillow and bloster and blanket for him.

I must say I have the best boyfriend in the world because when I am sick, he take care of me like a precious baby.

Under his care, I felt better faster! I love you Mr. Bambam!!

I hope to feel better sooner. Doc advice me not to go out, so I will just stay in. I think office environment also quite dirty, need to sterilise there already.

Missing someone is tough

My precious bambam got out of camp only last night 10.30pm.
He was outfield for 5 days last week. DIdn't spoke to him for 5 days. OMG, seriousness~ Missing him. Last night went out with his bunk mates and had supper at RK house.
Hmm, been there with relatives before already.

He had maggie goreng. I had only one cup of tea. Don't feel like having supper so late (1.30am). OMG.
Reach home about 3.15am, slept like a pig till 9am-10am.

Went his house at about 12pm, watch tv and see him play mahjong via viwawa. Abit dumb =X Hahaha.
Den ate dinner at his house (Maggie Mee).

AND only these 2 days, I gained back the weight that I intially lost. WTH! I swear man, I'm not going to skip my exercise routine and will eat less.
Tomorrow Lynn is on leave, only Fiona and me around.

I think I better do the payroll consol for Junior and concentrate on creating the EHF + bank a/c for the newbies.
I hope I can get my pay this week! ^_^

Anyways, he's going POP soon. I'm taking leave for those dates + my birthday! Happy~~

I pray hard nothing's bad gonna happen.

Anyways, Guanyin really very zhun. The other day, I couldn't find an important document and was on the verge of crying already (cause it will be a very very big mistake if I misplace the documents). So I keep praying hard in my mind to Guanyin that I have to find the documents out.

About a few hours later, I did a search again and really found it. (Kinda weird cause I search almost everywhere for it already).

Anyways, I thank with all my heart to the religion I believe in. Although I know Buddhism isn't about getting wishes fulfilled but I'm just glad :)

As I penned down these words, I'm also missing somebody. (Mr. Bambam)

I don't know why but it is going to be a long week for me this week. Mr. Bambam, you have to be strong. So do I.
好想你喔～ 真想时间过的快一点。。

明白你也和我一样，也想时间过的快一点。
我们要坚强，一定可以过这一端日子的。

我爱你！

Missing someone is extremely tough. It's like knowing he is so near but when you're unable to see him, you feel that the distance is so far apart.
It's like knowing he is thinking of you the same way you think of him, but you can feel tears uncontrollably drop down.
However, when you see him, there's no words to put it through.

It's the hug, the touch and the kiss that will tell those untold miseries that you had faced.
I love you.

It's the weekend!

我好开心！

Because it’s Friday! I’m so glad and excited! No work for weekend, only relax and relax.

But too much relaxation can just be so bored too =X
I think I will get Bambam to bring me for kite-flying this Sunday before his book-in.

Goodness, 6 days without talking to him at all! OMG! I wonder what exciting events had happened to him in the outfield at Tekong.

These few days at work is kinda busy, busy with interview scheduling, Shenton invoices checking, payroll, e-HR thingy, clean up of referral tracking, interview tracking, assessment taken tracking, p-file scanning and reference checks.

Whoa! So many many things to do, but luckily, it’s slowed down already. Leave updating is taken out of my job scope. Soon, I will have to push everything back to the managers and slowly by slowly, my contract end date is nearing! Whoo Hoo~

12th January 2010, I’m so looking forward to you. It’s time for me to check for any university openings and study my degree. I want to work and study part time. Hopefully, I can get a job in the sales line (where your hard work is paid off via commission!).

Hehe, excited just thinking about it.

Btw, I’ve my own savings now. Not that much but I hope to get more money so that I can concentrate on my studies and maybe get my own house earlier :)

Happy happy.

Anyways, my birthday is nearing! It’s 23rd Nov wors. I will be having a chalet at Aloha Loyang, the Garden Bungalow. Still unsure of what theme to do up for my birthday lehs.

OMG, sure going to spend at least 1k on this birthday! Gah! I hate spending money.

Tata, gonna go le. Byes~

Information about Aloha Garden Bungalow

GARDEN BGL 3, 4, 5, 7, 11 & 13

There are six Garden Bungalows.
These single-storey bungalows, surrounded by open field, are fully furnished with a living room set with TV and games table; dining room; air-conditioned bedrooms furnished with beds , wardrobes, dressers, bedside tables and wall fans; toilets/bathrooms with shower heater; BBQ pit and a fully equipped kitchen.

4 bedrooms, 2 queen size beds, 4 single beds, 4 bedrooms with attached toilet cum bathroom, 1 common toilet cum bathroom.

The suitable group size for day use is 40 persons only. 8 persons only for night use.

Sparky has been very naughty today

Today, Sparky has been very very naughty. I will spank him tonight so that he can never bark at anyone else again.

Sparky today in lift, one old man inside ask me he how old. He’s 4 years old. He never barks at old man. The old man is good person. The old man is a friendly person, Sparky knows.

The 3rd floor, the auntie came in. The auntie is my neighbour but I never greet her. I don’t like to greet anyone because I think call people Auntie sounds too old and I don’t even know them well.
Not sure why though but Sparky suddenly bark and want to pounce on the Auntie. It was a good thing that I was grabbing the leash very tightly. I squat down, cornered Sparky and pat Sparky to make him calm down so that he will not bark.

I’ve reached the floor, the Auntie is my neighbour, she goes out of the lift same time as me.

The Auntie began screaming at the top of her lungs. The Auntie began shouting. I stayed at my house, I feed Sparky. I am extremely angry. I am not a rude girl, I want to say sorry, I don’t want them to take Sparky away.

The Auntie tell the other neighbours that Sparky will bite, Sparky is a bad dog, I am a bad girl, I have no manners, my name is Sabrina, I am a bad girl, I am extremely rude, I don’t have any manners, I don’t know how to say sorry, she is scared of dogs, Sparky bark her, I have no manners, nobody teach me.

I hear these words clearly. My anger turns to fear. I ran out without my shoes, I say, Auntie, I am sorry. I cannot say sorry just now because I need to pat Sparky so that he will not bark again. I am sorry sorry sorry.

The Auntie still continue to scream, I ran back to my house. Daddy went out. I don’t know what did Daddy say. I saw Sparky. I hate him. I beat his buttocks, I hit very very hard, I spank and spank. I vent my anger and fear on him. I kick him. I hate him.

Sparky ran all the way to his kennel. Daddy came back and want to pull him out. Sparky growled.

I sat at a corner and I cried. I feel very fearful. I don’t dare to see the Auntie. I hate her, I don’t want to live with neighbours. They are all very very scary people, they want to take my Sparky away.

I feel very very fearful, I am very very scared. I cried all the way to work, I cried when I was working, I cried when I think about going home. I hate to go back to my house. I don’t know what will happen next. I don’t want to see that Auntie. I am scared of her.

I'm tired

I’m so freaking sians. At here, everyday must ensure everyone gets paid duly and on time. However, when it comes to my freaking fucking pay, it always late and never on time. I can never know when can I really get paid which freaking day.
At here, people gets paid additional days cause they are being paid on the 20th of the month. Me? I slog out whole month, want to get that tiny winy pay but I don’t even know when I can get that fucking pay.

At here, there are so many things to do, I start work early, go home late. People come late, go home same time as me. What that heck?
Work also cannot relax.

Super sians, I hate this feeling. Being buried under a lot of workload. Or maybe it’s really my incompetence that I cannot cope. Seriously, I am f useless. Useless thing in this world.

Go and die lah!

11th July 2009

想念你 又好担心你
这些日子 我一直在想如果没认识你，我到底会是一个怎么样的人？

一定是一个不会 为别人照想的一个人。

因为认识了你，我 变得比较 懂事了。。。

有些是我还是不懂，但我相信 有你在的日子，我会成长，和你一起活到老。

我们长大了。好不容易 也在一起四年了。
时间 真的不知不觉的过了。

我 非常非常的爱你喔！
请你 不要泄气，请你 坚持下去！

加油了，我的bambam!