When you feel sad, my heart breaks

I was having my facial today when I heard a tick.

It's his sms. Followed by the ringing of my phone. I couldn't pick up the call as I was still having my mask on and I felt helpless.

I knew something bad must have happened, but I keep wishing that he had only good news for me.

"Life sux" - I totally agreed. But I don't want you to feel sad.

Life is always unfair, there's no justice in it. But what we can do is to make life feel happier for us.

People failed 100 times in life before they become successful. And my bambam, I know you are the successful person in future. It's just that you are going through the failing chapter of your life.

Envy is evil, it kills your heart. What we can do is to congratulate them and share their happiness. Transform our saddness into someone else happiness.

Bambam, as long as we know we are the best, it's already a prize for ourselves. People may not recognised it, people may often forget it. But the memory will stay on because it's your memory.

I love you no matter what happens, where you are. My heart will always be with you. When you are joyful, I feel glad. When you are sad, my heart fills with sorrow. It's a mysterious bond that tie your feelings to my.

And when the world turns its back on you, you still have me around.

Rain: My feeling

I love Singapore because it's rainy over here.

I like the rain, but I hate the feeling of enjoying the rain alone. I'm getting a little miss-ing you type of feeling again.

It's 11 days gone for your holidays and now you're back in the camp again.

My dear, I know it's going to be hard on you for you are all alone in the vocation. But promise me you will be strong and hang on.

I know it's tiring to think of the future for both of us, to save up for our wedding and to make me a happy bride.

But for me, nothing matters except your own health. Promise me you will stay healthy for me. I don't want to see you down, or gone.

I want to enjoy the rain with you, to walk in the weather, just holding your warm hands so tightly that I can feel extremely secure. I can just sit on the bench near the beach and watch the waves coming in and forth and lie on your shoulder and just rest my eyes in peace.

I know you are disappointed at yourself for not making it but my dear, you've lost 10kgs in the whole BMT and you're excelling in all the stations except standing board jump and I can say, I'm proud of you no matter what.

And like how you once said before, the enjoyment of the rain is not just looking out of the window directly but to face the sky and look at the rain dropping down. To let the raindrops fall on your face, that's the enjoyment of looking at the rain.

We belong together.

"I only think of you on two occasions. That's day and night."

One fine day, I suddenly heard this song on my MP3 "We belong together - remix" by Mariah Carey and heard this particular part that I feel was really sweet.

So happily, I went to tell Mr. Bambam. Conversation was roughly as follows:

Me: "I only think of you on two occasions lehs."

Him: "o.O when?"

Me: "That's day and night. So this means I am thinking of you always."

Him: "Oh.. Really? Hmm..."

Me: "Hehe" *So happy that I am so sweet to him*

Suddenly,

Him: "I also think of you on two occasions only."

Me: "Ehh, you cannot copy me one. Blehs."

Him: "Noo, my is not the same. I think of you when I breathe in and breathe out. That is much more than you think of me. :)"

Me: "...... power..."

In fact, it's kinda sweet though :) I love you, Mr. Bambam

I LOVE YOU

This is too cute to be missed :)

Mr. Bambam's POP Day

My Bambam has POP-ed! Haha, it's actually last week thingy but I have not blogged about it.

I took leave for the 2 days to accompany him. His POP was very nice, except the fact that the whole family + me mistook another person as him and took pictures for the wrong guy. *Pengz* Really fainting sia.

So, I promised Mr. Bambam that if he buy a DSR camera

for me, I will zooooooom in and take pictures of him for the passing out vocational thingy. I swear I won't see wrong since I can zoom x alot alre

ady.

Anyways, let photographs do the speaking instead of me typing :)

SICK!

Never felt so sick before. Was in bed for 2 whole days. Can you imagine that??

Thursday not feeling well already, went home and slept exactly at 10pm, didn't even bother to bathe. At about 2am, I woke up feeling very hot. Went into mummy room and ask her did I have a fever, she say no have la, anyhow say.

I went back to sleep. About 30 minutes later, stomach felt abit discomfort, rushed into the toilet and puke. Saw some black coloured item coming out, unsure what it is. Went back to sleep, not long later, same thing happen. Went to the toilet to puke, same black coloured thingy.

Mum ask me did I eat the food on the table last night, I say yes, the mushroom, she scold me. She say that is leftover food, cannot eat one. Now I know what is that black coloured thingy already, it's mushroom.

Mum scold dad also cause dad never throw away the food and left it on the table. Feel very very uncomfortable. Puke the 3rd time. Morning came, everyone went to work. I'm alone at home.

I felt very very very sick, I can't even pull myself out of bed and go see doctor. Called mummy and cried. She ask Ah ma and Ah gong to bring me go see doc.

Have a fever, food poisoning, thoart infection, cold. Argh, feel so cold.

Went back ah ma house and sleep. Whole day never eat anything, no appetite. Ah ma help me put cold water on my body to make my temperature go down.

Went home, mummy cover me with 4 blankets, I keep sweat and sweat, about midnight like that felt a bit better, next morning went out to see chinese doc.

Came home, vomitted again. :'(

Fever came back, no mood but keep sleep again, this time is my Mr. Bambam with me cus my whole family went out.

Mr. Bambam spend the entire night last night to sponge me with cold water, in hope of my fever go away. Every 5 seconds help me change water, help me use the towel and wipe my hands + legs.

My fever still no go, but he still keep help me sponge my body. Every half an hour ask me wake up drink more water and eat medicine when the time reached. At about 11pm, my body temperature dropped finally. Mr. Bambam too tired, slept on the floor. I went to toilet saw him sleep there, so I went to take pillow and bloster and blanket for him.

I must say I have the best boyfriend in the world because when I am sick, he take care of me like a precious baby.

Under his care, I felt better faster! I love you Mr. Bambam!!

I hope to feel better sooner. Doc advice me not to go out, so I will just stay in. I think office environment also quite dirty, need to sterilise there already.