have you ever miss someone so badly?
the person may not be someone you like but just a simple friend and yet she/he can make you miss her/him so much..
i miss my friends all the time.. every second, minute, hour, day, month, year.. every million light years.. i will miss them..
right now, i am missing them.. when will they ever remember me and come up to say hello? when will they be online so that i can smile and chat with them.. when when when..


ich vermisse dich wenn du nicht da bist..
ich liebe dich fuer immer..

to all the girls out there..

the following post of a particular person is based on my view and collagues'. if you are the particular person and u feel that i am wrong about u.. just sue me.. but, adding towards it.. i aint talking about u.. cause there is no name.. (of cause i dont know your name) and.. i didnt say it might be you.. so if you are soooo sensitive and thought it is you.. oh god.. you are admiting to what u have done to make me lose my appetite and that sucks.. cause the whole world will know who you are.. u make me puke (eminem rockss).. btw, i apologised to all the perverts in the world.. cus i hate u.. and i wanna make a blog post of u!!!

ps. if anyone finds this discriminating, pls inform me and i might consider deleting this off.

okies.. this is how it goes.. i went to work yesterday.. whaa.. damn early.. about 12 lehs!!! haha.. den go work lorr.. very sianss.. today work nobody come.. ewww...

working was nice..
but i met a pervert.. YUCKS.. he is a guy.. OBVIOUSLY.. (lamer me) and he is ugly.. oh god.. how can someone be so ugly!!!!! even worse than the monkey over at some trees.. okies.. he came around 1.20pm or so.. i forgot the time.. but is b4 my manager come and after alan left.. den.. he came lorr.. chiekye and ashiedda say.. eww that pervert again!!! i didnt know it was him.. but once i had a glance (omg, i almost puke) at him, i got this feeling he is a no no no good guy!! awwww.. i was so true.. he walked in front of the glass panel and stood right in front of me.. stopping.. he turned back, back facing me.. den.................... he put his hand into his pants, as if was tucking in his shirt.. (that was what i thought initially!!) but i was wrong.. his shirt was still not in.. n....................................... he was touching himself!! OH GOD, that was public.. okies.. i might be wrong.. (i doubt i am..) EVERY GIRL PLS LISTEN UP!! if u ever c this guy lurking around a bookstore in takashimaya.. he is bespectacled with framed glasses and always(pls note ALWAYS) carry a dark colour bag. it is not a sling.. is a backpack!! he had his hair gel and had very very very pervertic eyes.. (small eyes and looks damn pervert).. he was checking out all the girls there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! keep viewing everywhere.. he might be pretending to flip thru books but he is not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! really.. i am one of the so called 'victims'.. oh god.. i wanna puke.. okies.. den he went off.. around 2.40, (this time i am sure of the time cause i havin my break).. i was eating my staff meal.. and guess what!! he stood there in from of the book shelves and took a MUSIC book (oh god, i reckon he dont even understand music, okies? pls dont insult ppl who loves music and plays insturments..) and pretended to flip thru the books.. but he was not!!!! he was staring at me and had this grin on his face.. his teeth were so dirty i bet he didnt brush them for ages lor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he was staring and grinning for 5 minutes like that lorr.. even yenwei oso notice it and she came over n say.. ehh.. u c that pervert.. he keep looking at u lehs!! damns.. i feel like taking a knife and pplunge into his heart.. and dig out his dirty mind~~ wha liews.. u idiot.. (btw, this guy, my colleague told me, had a record of molesting a customer b4..) whaa liaos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ban him away from this world la!!! then my manager took note and that pervert finally stopped looking at me and grinning.. he walked away.. i bet.. must be targeting another innocent girl!!!!!!!! OMG!! i really hate perverts!!!

GIRLS!! when you encounter such incidents, dont fear.. inform any guys that is around or call the police.. we as girls have the power to stop such pervertic ppl!!! (these are all advice given to me by my guy frens..)

now, i finally understands why my fren always disallow me to wear skimpy clothings.. whaa!! i didnt realize that there were so many perverts!! oh god!!!

this is not the 1st time.. therefore, i had conquer the fear.. the 1st time i met a molester!! he touched my bum!! oh god.. he touch for the 3rd time and i noe it wasnt by accident.. so i told my frens and they glared at him till he got scared and walked away.. the 2nd time.. it was in a crowded place.. i was wearing pants lor.. and that person still touch me!! haha.. he picked the wrong victim.. i stepped on his foot hard.. (i was back facing him) and i guessed that hurts alot.. serves u bast**d right!! i inform my mum and aunt.. my aunt almost wanna pull that guy out and beat him!! the third time is yesterday.. i am not afraid anymore.. u dare to come near me, i dare to kill you..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so, girls.. out there.. dont ever be scared of them.. the more afraid u are.. the more perverts are going to appear!! stand up and kick their ass..

*ps.. perverts should be banned!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

haha.. so long no blog le.. cus of work mahss.. haha.. tired.. these few days always 3 den slp cus playin gunbound.. whahahha.. noe alot of frens in dere.. all kip say wanna marry me n love me blahs.. jus small kids.. cause all younger den me.. haha.. feels so old yet kana loved by little kids.. i think they think i m a kid.. cus i m always so childish.. xp.. sighss.. borings.. todae workin again.. gonna practise my insturments le.. hahaha.. todae workin wib weileong.. hope i can tahan.. haha.. buaiss.. he must sweep properly mahss.. haha.. okiess laa.. weileong ar, weileong.. do ur best!! jia you..

met loii ytd.. he gave me dis diskette dat contains all my piic... cus i took his hp n take piic.. hahaha.. den i can upload dem le!! whaaa.. so happie worss.. hehes.. next monday goin sk0ol to upload them.. cus my home com cnt use diskette de.. ssad saad.. :'(
neways.. i made a promise to myself to study harder next sem.. whahaha.. i passed everythin lehss.. except stupid stats which i need to take supp paper.. luckily weihong took one day offff from everythin jus to teach me stats.. k0olss.. next sem, i will stick wib him 24/7.. haha.. he do wad homework.. i oso do wad homework.. got qns den ask ask ask.. hehes.. yeahss!! i will score As next sem!!!! cnt dist sia.. can onli As.. hahaha.. :)
den.. ytd wear high heelss.. it was like hell lorr.. come on.. how can de gers in my class wear such shoes n walk whole dae?? liaoss.. i buay tahan.. walk 3 hours already wan to cry.. den loii buy a pair of pinkie slippers for me.. kekes.. cute pinkie sliipperss.. hehes.. den my leggggss were freed from pain!!! finally, the taste of freeedoom!!! k0olss.. hahas.. den go orchard.. whaa.. damn sianss.. take his hp n take alot piic lorr.. haha.. den eat lucnch de time.. kaoss.. de chixxx too salty siaa.. make me dun wan eat.. 1st time nv eat finish my f0od.. :'( wastage.. sighss..
den i last nite got nitemare lorr.. i dreamt dat i was late for work lorr.. n i dun even bother.. n dat day was rainin heavily lorr.. jus like de sunday i sub weileong.. haha.. i sub weileong n huilee.. den fiona sub me n huilee le!! haha.. k0olss.. den no more le lahss.. now dman hungry.. go find food eat~!!! yeahss!!

whaa!! got alot of photos!! i put make up.. whahhaa.. ish onli the eye liner niass.. whahaha.. den i l0ok like goin clubbin lorr.. ka0ss... l0ok s0o oolld but act liike a kiid.. shiits..
haha..
todae eay swensens.. damn farks lorr.. we waited outside 20mins.. but dat's understandable.. den go inside.. take abt 10 mins to c the menu! den after dat.. they took abt 20mins den got ppl come n serve n take the items we want lorr.. oh god!!! sOOO fast horss.. den .. my ice cream came very very very long lor!! but we still give dem.. 2dollars tipss.. so0oo.. i spent 40 dere..
-_-' den i bought nail polish todae.. n a pair of shoes.. nail polish ish.. transparent de.. to protect my nails when i do dish washin at coffee club.. hahaha..
yeahss..
nth niice haooen
gotta change the string of my guzheng..
farksss..

gonna get scoldin once n again..





sighs..

tata!!! todae go out eat swensenss... very happie todae.. but at nites.. i broke the 10th string from the top of my guzheng.. my mummy was soo0ooo farking angry she scream de hell outta me.. sighss..
<------ i am angry!! de pic depicts eeverything!!

whew WHEW!!! haha.. monday.. go take survey.. earned 40dollars by doin one survey.. k0olllss!! i wish next time got more survey let me take.. whahaha.. den go cp eat eat wib jenjen..
tues.. went out wib huilee n loiiloii.. huilee buy alot make up thingy lehss.. den loi say wan go bugis den we go lorr.. sianss.. walk bugis nth de.. whahaha.. we go the shi ma lu dere pray pray to the god.. i prayed for.... cnt say.. whahahha.. den we walked all the way from bugis to plaza sing den to orchard taka den to far east.. whaa.. no wonder loii so slim.. everytime use bus 11.. sighss.. tired siaa!! wed workin 12-6!! yeahss.. can work.. haha.. den..
wed.. work.. happie laa.. nth happen. hehes!! ate a tiramisu.. ate one ytd too.. ytd de not dat niice.. at coffee bean.. whahaha.. spent alot siaa.. today goin shopping for shoes!! yeahs!!

the world outside..

the world outside...

the innocences of a little child
is one of the precious moments i delight in.

the carefree and freedom
oneself has..
is forever lost..

betrayals, backstabbing, bad mouthing..
why words of such always occur?

are there really two sides of the human face?

why can one be so pure and nice..
while it can also turn evil and curel..

how can one grow up so fast,
and learn to accept all these facts?

how can one survive in such circumstances?

the little child in me has awaken..
and the little child in me wants all of it to be over..
the little child..
don't ever wants to grow up..

weEee.. t0dae workiin worss.. work NAC 12-4.. sianss.. but i mus say.. there de ppl not as scary as i tot they wud b.. they are kinda nice and frenly!! but i lurve kino the best.. hehes.. wib my darling huilee n mengyong n simying n yanwei!! fiona.. hmm.. chiekyeh.. asssiiiiidaaaa(dunno how to spell her name :'( ) den got a few guys too.. hahahaha.. den after nac.. i work at kino.. 5-10.. whaa.. dat blooddyy weiileong dunno how to sweep floor de lehs!!!!!!! *angry at hiim!!!* hehes.. den eat lorr.. hahaha.. k0olss.. i wanna go shopping liaoss.. buyin more clothess.. did i tell u i went to buy clothes wib huillee?? haha.. next, it will be the shoess.. mine spoilt in the bloody rain that SUNDAY!! haha.. but it's alright le.. whahahhahaha.. tata.. buuuaiiss!!

sighss, dis few days kip doin closing!!! somemore cnt play liaoss.. especially fridae.. goin nac.. whaaa.. qianye tell me there de ppl kinda strict.. must careful abit.. haha.. my 4hourss.. how m i goin to endure it dere!!!! jinming doin tonite.. whahahaha.. must go ask him how was it.. hehes..!! sighsss.. so many ppl having exams liaoss.. dman.. mine is over.. but i still nit to take sub paper.. lame~~ i must realli ask weihong to teach me le..!!! lalalalala.. working tonite ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wish i wish!! got more more more strawberry shortcake to eat!! haha.. those cream filling ur mouth.. with some at the side.. yummy!!!! n the strawberries!! sweet yet sour.. k0olxx.. i lurve it!! yays!!!

THE MOST SWAY THING THAT HAPPEN TO ME IN ONE DAE..
CHILDREN SHOULD NOT READ BECAUSE IT CONSITS OF ABUSIVE LANGUAGE.
THANK YOU FOR YOUR FARKING COOPERATION..

1. FARKINGLY DUN NIT TO WORK TODAE.. BUT HAD TO WORK.. FARKING TIRED..
2. WAKE UP WITH A FARKING ACHE OVER THE BODY DUE TO CARRYING TOO MUCH OF THINGS YTD.. THE SECOND TRIP WAS THE HEAVIEST.. SIGHSS.. :'(
3. WAS ALMOST FARKINGLY LATE FOR WORK. HAD GUITAR LESSON.. ACTUALLY I ALREADY PLANNED NOT TO FARKING WORK TODAE CUS OF DAT.. BUT I FARKING NIT TO WORK.. SIGHSS..
4. FARKING RAINING DAMN HEAVY TODAY.. RUN TO MRT STATION. MY SHOE STRAP WAS BROKEN.. AND I WAS FARKING DRENCHED ALL OVER!!
5. MY NEW BAG WAS DRENCHED..
6. FARK MY HANDPHONE.. IT IS SPOILT.. FARKSS..
7. WAD CAN I SAY? I DID SOMETHING RONG AT WORK.. AND JASON ISH ANGRY.. SIGHSS.. SORRY JASON..!!!
8. SIGHSS.. WORK FOR 3HOURS ONLI CUS THEY DUN REALLI NIT PPL.. DEN I ONLY EARNED 15DOLLARS.. IT CANT EVEN MAKE UP FOR MY BROKEN SHOE..
9. FARKING WHEN TO SHOW MY BAG TO THE SECURITY.. AND THE FARKING BAG ZIP CAME OFF.. FARKSS.. SPOILT LORR..!!!!
10. FARKING ALMOST FALL DOWN WHEN WALKING THE STAIRS..
11. FARK THAT GUY HU CLOSED THE DOOR.. KINO BACK DOOR NIAA.. AS IF I NEBER WHEN IN B4 LORR.. CLOSE FOR WAD.. SCARED I C WAD AR!!?? EVEN HUILEE OSO AGREE IT IS DAMN IRRITATING FOR HIM TO DO DAT LORR.. I M WAITIN FOR HER MAHSS!!!
12. FARK LAA.. WE BOUGHT THE FOOD.. AND I KNEW IT WOULD DROP ONTO THE FLOOR.. AND FARKINGLY TRUE.. IT FELL FLAT..
13. THE ONE I TOOK WAS BROKEN.. BUT NOT HUILEE FAULTS.. IS I M FARKIN SWAY TODAE SO WILL HAPPEN SUCH THINGY..
14. FARKING WENT HOME.. AND MY FARKING BODY ACHESS ALOT..
15. TOMORROW HAVE TO WORK AGAIN.. AND I M UNSURE OF HOW TO WORK AT NAC.. THEIR FOOD AND OURS SO DIFFER!!!
16. I HAVE NO BLOODY HANDPHONE TO USE LE.. FARKS..

sighss.. guess u all read liaoss.. tink i very vulgar.. but i m damn angry so i wanna let it off.. writin does make my anger lowered.. but hehe.. okiess.. i m alright.. true.. realli.. i jus hate someone lorr.. hahaha.. hehe.. sighss.. dun try to comfort me.. but can ask me for the story.. i can repeat everything.. felt damn sad lorr.. and i m a failure.. realli.. :'(

yeahss.. bought a bag.. huilee oso!! her bag damn chii0oo.. i liike the butterfly!!! phew.. i wish i had that kind of money to buy so many bags!!! huilee bought 3 bags le.. in total!! wha0s..
den nehss.. i g0nna get my bl00dy pay!!! it is m0re than expected.. sim ying got less.. i more by a few d0llarss niaaa.. hahaha.. my pay ish 199.55.. but i bought a pair of **AH TOOT** specs!! it took away 154 of my pay le.. so i let 45.55 t0 pay my hp bill which ish 44.65.......... s-o-0o0o0- i m left with 90cents.... t0 spent.. blahss~~~~~ i hate bills.. hahahhaa.. but nvm lorrr... n my guzheng cost 1200.. sianss.. nit to pay so0o0o0ooo many things!!!! haha.. but i very happie lehss.. dunno y.. lurve all hu ish readin my blogss..

new blog song.. i love it alot.. taken from initial d.. though i nv hear it b4 in the movie.. (cus i remember gloves to ali , piao yi, yi lu xiang bei and AE86 niaa..)
dis song.. is realli meaningful.. though it is a rap.. but it is abt a guy.. n de ger he loves.. so sweet.. i totally like guys hu sings abt de ger they love.. haiss.. but my fren cant hear the song!! can u all?? if can.. leave me a tag..

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