FAMILY

I'm feeling a little emotional at the moment. Many things are going through my mind, and the most important factor is "Death".

"Death" is always a scary topic that I hate to touch on but has been going through my mind a million times. I remember when I was a teenager (though I am still in my 20, not yet 20s), I keep thinking what is "me"?

I always imagine as a person out of my "human shell" and visualising myself standing there, looking at "myself" doing what I am doing everyday.

What if one day, I die? What will happened to the people around me? What if one day, someone close to me die? What will happened to me?

I always never treat anyone good before, especially to my Family. I shout at my mum for getting on my nerves, asking me questions again and again and nagging me to do the housework for her. I tsk at my father for asking too many questions and asking me for a new handphone for him to use (as his was going to be spoil) and for sending me late to work and pretend to be asleep when he's asking me questions.

I bullied my sister to do all housework on my behalf and to take care of the dog. I even laughed at her and post her ugliest pictures in facebook.

I realized, I'm evil to my family.

Why can I be so nice and sweet to anyone else but not to my family? I am so wrong, extremely wrong in my own character.

What if one day, everyone disappear? There will be no one for me to ask "Meimei, is this outfit nice? Meimei, can you bring the dog down? Mummy, wash my clothes for me? Papa, bring me to work please?" and I'm all alone.

I can't imagine that, but I understand that one day, that situation will arise and be thrown directly to me.

How can I react? What can I do?

I don't want to live my life with regrets, I don't want to be grasping the empty air and cried myself to sleep.

And from today onwards, there must be a change in me. That's to treat my family like FAMILY, not like some unknown stranger I met on the road.

I LOVE YOU.

Bangs - Hair

I was looking through my old photographs when I found this!

LOLs, this is super classic and cutes lah, wondering should I cut back the same hairstyle?*Ponders*

Jessica's Birthday

I went to Jessica's 21st Birthday yesterday. It's kinda fun to meet up those secondary school mates again. We are still the same cracking the same old jokes.

I've asked Mr. Bambam to tag along in case I feel outcast by the clique but it seems that I can blend in extremely well though. - Sorry Mr. Bambam if you felt too bored >.<

I am so glad that I went to Jessica's birthday. I wonder how will it be like for my birthday.

As I could observe, Jess was totally out of breath during her birthday, handling all the operations like food, serving people, entertaining.

In the end, we self entertained ourselves by "MAHJONG".

It was really hilarious playing Mahjong, because most of us don't know much about it. Thanks to Lingy and another 高手 who keeps guide us how to play.

I already know these fews:-

1) Flower, if number is yours, got 1 tai

2) Animal (any), got 1 is 1 tai, 2 is 2 tai

3) Got 1 tai can hu already

4) Zhuang and opposite zhuang is 19 tiles, the other 2 is 18 tiles (double layers)

Then, I learnt:-

1) Pong pong hu got 3 tai

2) Hong zong, fa cai, bai ban if got 1 is 1 tai, got 2 is 2 tai

3) Usually play maximum can win is 5 tai

4) Kang, everyone must pay the person who kang

5) Person who give the winner hu must pay double the amount

So fun mans! LOLs, it is really entertaining sia. Den we crack so many stupid jokes about each other, and knowing we didn't mean much, it was really siao eh.

Anyways, my birthday party is like 42 days later, I wonder will I be so busy anots. I hope to find a few coordinators like my friends to help me out (Jessica has a few friends to help her, especially Gabriel sia!)

I guess I need more people to help me; rallying help now!

Hehes, Mr. Bambam is out of the question cus he will be in Camp on FRIDAYs.

So, please help me out~!

Forseen Sabrina dying on the grounds at Aloha Loyang Garden Bungalow 3 on 20th November 2009.

=X CHEERS~

Ageing process

Today is mid-autumn festival. This used to be a look forward event for our family when I was still a kid.

Usually, our family will meet up at our grandparents' place and have a BBQ for all sorts of events. The kids (which refer to me+cousins) will always end the night with a tour around the neighbourhood with our brightly lighted lanterns.

I still remember we almost burned down the playground literally. And how once I met my schoolmates when we were having a brisk walk in the park.

Those were the days but it seems that when we grow up, everything changes.

The grass-patched park was torn down and replaced by concrete grounds. My grandparents moved and stay in with my uncle as the unbearable neighbour keeps disturbing them.

Now, the mid-autumn event seems like a chore to some of my cousins, finding it unnecessary to turn up even though grandmother has called several times. As I'm silently reprimanding them for their crimes, I myself am also guilty of being unfilial. I cringed too sometimes at the sound of the phone ringing, it's definitely my grandmother who is asking what time will we arrived at her place.

Today, I had the dinner as usual. But I found out something unusual this night. Grandfather's legs were as big as an elephant's. It seems that he has gotten some type of illness and it caused his leg to swell.

I'm still feeling kind of sad that I have neglected my grandparents so much and that the kids grew up too fast.

Mummy decided to take leave on Tuesday to accompany Grandfather to the polyclinic. I was reluctant to take leave as 1) I don't know if my leave can be approved 2) I'm afraid of not having enough leave anymore 3) Too many things piled up for me to clear at work

So I told mummy straight that I am not able to accompany her on Tuesday.

However, she struck me back with a question that I felt ashamed of myself, "Do you still remember that they (referring to grandparents) took the effort to come over and fetch you to the clinic the day when you were extremely sick?" [Refer to this post "Sick"]

Argh, shiat! Gotten me with that. Yeah, if my grandparents can take care of me when I felt extremely unwell, why can't I do the same to them?

So I made up my mind to take that day off on Tuesday.

I love you, my family.