wee~ today actually goin out with loi.. drag myself outta bed.. kinda sianss.. whahahaha.. but still went.. wanna watch movie but end up nv watch.. bought this very cute bear for linghui.. omg.. so sweet n cute~ cant bear to give her lehss.. how how how??????? hehes.. den went topshop and c.. whaaa.. i saw this black jacket i love alot.. my cousin got.. she lent me b4.. i like i like~~ den i ask.. no more stock.. so we go suntec c.. whaa.. from bugis walk to suntec.. phewss.. den we go pray to the guan yin again.. whahahaha.. nice nice.. broke liaoss.. use nets lorr..


reach suntec.. whaaa... got lehss.. but no more new stock.. -_-""" wa laoss.. so i bought the only one left.. hahaha.. sure.. i dont mind.. hehes.. den give linghui her bday pressie.. den go eat den go home..


no more le.. sianss..

orhss.. got buy bluetack.. go home paste my wall..

reach home.. whaa.. junhao forgot hu ish tianyu.. :"( tml episode i must watch!! yeahss..
den bought a file to file all my itemss.. spent about 50dollars today.. :) 39f0r jacket.. 12 f0r my file, bluetack, tissues papers(i m always topping up my tissues.. my mum dont top up..:"(..) and a sketch book.. hehes.. :) my file horss.. 60pockets~ can store many scores like siaos.. n store my homework.. in future.. whahahhaha..

ytd spend alot oso.. kns.. take pay spend so much... spend about 100 le.. (stopping liaos..)

so my bank left.. 650.. okays lah.. not dat bad.. :) spend 150niaa.. (actually got 800) ehh. but 40dollars is help my mummy buy thingys the lorr.. haha.. nvm.. dont need to count that much..

next month earned 200.. (october de la) den.. 100pay billss.. 100 put bank lorr..
yays!!! sch opening... hahaha.. can show off my jacket.. whahahahahha.. :)

wee~ i bought alot of shine in the dark stars.. hehe.. can put my bedroom.. sweee~ hmm.. went jess home.. got cakes siaa.. whass.. nice nice.. took this pic..!!! from melody handphone.. wee~ nice nice nice.. next time show any1 who wants to c.. whahahahaha.. eat with linghui also.. all jian fei.. eat potato salad.. -_-" haha.. nice laa.. not bad.. jess very poor thingy.. her mum beat her siaa.. i saw her mum taking belt out.. den go kitchen beat her.. i think.. :"( i dont like.. she was slapped by her mum too.. for goin home at about 12.30 like that last nite.. sighss.. i bet i have a nicer life.. but she got alot pressie n good wishes.. haha.. :) i bought a rose for kejia.. the pink rose from toy'r'us!!!! nice!!! i wish i had one too~ 4d0llars.. plus card.. 5d0llars.. kekes.. if someone can buy me 12 of the roses.. whaaaa~ day dreaming.. den no more lorr... wan to jian fei.. did some exercise le.. hehes.. this morning weight is 56kg.. i was like WHAAA.. but i think jumped back to 58kg again.. stupid fat fat.. i never take dinner.. i ate like beehoon for brunch.. den the potato salad and go jessica hse eat vegetarian tofu.. n a small bowl of fake (vegetarian) sharks' fins.. i must say..... real one are nicer.. but haha.. nvm.. it is still nice..

go arcade.. whaa.. jessica dance the parapara very chio.. keep shaking her body.. nice nice.. den we caught this bear for her(doggy actually) with just one dollar.. is heng lahss.. pure luck i must say.. whahahaha.. den no more.

kinda nice..

kinda happy..

i wish i will stay like this.. very myself today..

:)

getting back myself soon..

pls endure.. all readers..

hAppY BirthdAy..

happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to u..
happy birthday..
happy birthday..
happy birthday to jessica..

haha.. dedicate this birthday song to jessica..
was abt to sleep..
but i cant..
i guess.. i was staying up to message her happy birthday..
i bet she must b in some pubs at MS getting drunk by yolanda n her friends..
haha.. how nice it is to celebrate your birthday..

this will reminds me of my birthday too..
last year.. there wasnt any cakes.. any celebration of my birthday..
real bad luck huhs..
well.. the only person that accompany me was loi..
glad to have company.. although i recieved presents..
but recieved lesser than another girl in class..
i guess..
i wasnt that much important..
i mean, i received less than i gave out..
but.. i know it is wrong to think that way..
i wish i had more than i give..



well.. no cakes.. last year.. i didnt have 16 candles on any cakes..
so i guess i m still that young.. haha..

i didnt get to sink my teeth into that creamy cakes i love to eat.. and blow out the candles n make a wish..
does dat matters?


oh man..
and this agains reminds me of...
my primary school days..

i was one of those that always hung out with guys n girls.. i mean.. popular in class..
get along well..
den nearing november.. school always close b4 my birthday..
and there were many girls.. i think 3 or so.. girls that happen to have november birthdays..
17 and 18 november if i didnt remember wrongly.. well.. they also land on the holidays we had..


well.. the guys bought cakes.. and i had to run errands for them..
helping them passed the girls' presents to them (the guys were kinda shy)
accompanying them to the cake shop and collect the cake..
n even pocketed out money to buy..


well.. then they sing happy birthday song.. the bloody song..

so.. everything went well n nice..
the cake is nice..
the presents are nice..
the girls are happy..
the guys are happy..
i was happy then..

but secretly..

i always hated when this happens..

my birthday was so near to theirs..
but have they ever cared?

i never once recieved any presents from any of my classmates (during my primary school days)
i only give.. i dont received..
oh.. when i was secondary 1, a guy (i had crushed on b4) from my primary school class gave me a bear.. n i have always kept it..


n a girl gave me be.. a bear too.. actually.. unwillingly.. due to they need to spend 10dollars n above to get the big winnie the pooh bear thus ended up buying one stupid bear n claim to b my bday present..

for once.. i was delighted..
but now.. that was disgusting..


however bad it may be.. i m lucky enough to have my family to celebrate my birthday when i was young..
i guess family are always the best (though they forgot my last year birthday and i didnt get to blow that bloody candles off n make a wish n eat the creamy cake)
but still..



everything will turn out right?




i suppose..

f that b*tch that snatch bid away my locket.. 2 bitc*es actually.. f u f u f u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really sincerely like that locket alot.. i can put pictures in it.. how sweet.. now thinking of snatching away this locket from another girl (this locket is black.. the one i like is pink..) omg.. i really like the pink one.. should i snatch? might as well.. muahahahaha..

okayss.. this is it.. bored at home.. hates myself, hates everyone.. getting to realized that nice bubbly friendly side of me has hidden away in some corner.. out facing the crude world is the wild bad crude unfriendly me.. arghss.. whatever..



must be the influence of a person..


f off if u dont like me.. i mean it.. i cant believe i will ever thought of suh thing to say... omg.. i have changed..

lalalala..
searching myself in the smoke of illusions.. but i seems to be lost in the fog, i cant even find myself..



Searching For Oneself

re use this blogskin again.. hmm thurs night had a headache.. slight fever.. morning wake up at 8. prepared everything.. eventually.. have to walk in the cold rain..
play gunbound.


today play gunbound.. my friend turn his back to me.. he left me.. the game was supposed to b me and him a team .. but stupid MugOfLock.. he.. join the other team.. yeahs.. they won.. for sure.. i was winning.. all along.... until that game.. sure a loser.. leave me.. my team consists of idiots.. n quiters.. feel like quitting too.. but.. i shouldnt be such a bad person.. so i stayed.. n i lost.. without glory or pride.. and i think he won is a disgrace.. because a betrayer shouldnt feel proud of himself..





whaa~~~can b promoted.. but not sure.. i suicide i tink 7 times bahs.. whahahahaa.. lose gp.. heck care..













sighss.. feel so lonely..

no one ever cares..

i m buried right down..

ten feets under..

people above..

will never understand..

how lonely it is..

to b underground..

today i went out with linghui.. hahaha.. den took pictures.. whahahahaha.. she bought alot of things.. we watch corpse bride!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whaa, that show is nice.. i like the corpse bride more.. she is much prettier.. except the eye popping...... dat was gross.. haha.. in all.. it is a 4**** show!! hehes..

today work.. take pay.. 400dollars.. so lil.. cause need to pay alot bills.. shouldnt have a hp.. burdening me.. yet i love it.. xP mus b an idiot..
tired..
sleeping from today until tomorrow............................... dont wake me up..

hmm.. yesterday i wasnt home.. i stayed over at my friend's house.. OH.. IT WAS A LAST MINUTE DECISION..
well.. i was taking bus home than after jessica ask me to come.. so i was like hmmm.. why not? than i went here house n sleep over... whaa.. kinda excited.. 1st time slping at other ppl house.. but jess was studyin hard.. for history and english.. she ask me questions about english.. and i try to arrange her compo for her..
yesterday work lorr.. den like dat.. next week only 2 days.. work.. heck care..
next next week dont intend to work.. intend to go gym with jessica.. whahahahaha.. this coming thurs goin out with linghui lorr.. so happie!!



today went out with huilee.. hmm... actually wanted to buy things but didnt!! OMG.. do u know that i had 2 freaky pimples.. jinming saw one yesterday (during work) and he was like!! SABRINA!! u got pimple!!!!!!!!!!! den i was like -____-""" thx huhs.. reminding me...
den i had another one.. wha laos.. pimples breakout!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ewww.. wells.. heck care..
hmm.... today i bought a pair of shoes(i wanted long long long ago to buy that).. kinda pretty.. and a watch.. (that was on impluse.. but it is overall nice?) and a racerback (i wanted one too.. long ago.. but cant find).. and ate very cheap lunch at far east!! omg.. the lunch was 7.90 niaa.. it comes with a soup of the day.. garlic bread.. main course.. drink.. dessert (cakes!!).. do you agree it is cheap???? i think it really is.. i ate chicken chop!!! with black pepper sauce.. niice.. it is at hans!!!!! whaa................ damn niice!! hehes.. den i went to mit my mu at compasss point.. not eating dinner.. a very filling lunch.. jian fei liaoss.. she buy alot of sushi home.. kekes.. tml working.. hmm... taking pay tomorrow le!!! whahahaha.. my tips i took = 14dollars... whews!!!! kinda lil but still better than nth!! whahahahahaha.. sch's opening.. i wonder wad will it be like..

i hate someone..

today.. let a seat to an uncle.. kinda old de.. haha.. he say thx.. welcome wors.. den serve.. today nv make mistakes n abit sak.. cus i do until 7.00.. do 6 n 1/2 hrs.. haha.. niice bahs.. i think.. den.. next week only work 2 days.. dunno wad to do liaoss.. so little days.. :"( i think i rot at home liaos lorr.. kns.. so little work.. pay oso little.. bills higher.. still have to buy so many things.. give me work more oso buay sai.. wad the heck..