hAppY BirthdAy..

happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to u..
happy birthday..
happy birthday..
happy birthday to jessica..

haha.. dedicate this birthday song to jessica..
was abt to sleep..
but i cant..
i guess.. i was staying up to message her happy birthday..
i bet she must b in some pubs at MS getting drunk by yolanda n her friends..
haha.. how nice it is to celebrate your birthday..

this will reminds me of my birthday too..
last year.. there wasnt any cakes.. any celebration of my birthday..
real bad luck huhs..
well.. the only person that accompany me was loi..
glad to have company.. although i recieved presents..
but recieved lesser than another girl in class..
i guess..
i wasnt that much important..
i mean, i received less than i gave out..
but.. i know it is wrong to think that way..
i wish i had more than i give..



well.. no cakes.. last year.. i didnt have 16 candles on any cakes..
so i guess i m still that young.. haha..

i didnt get to sink my teeth into that creamy cakes i love to eat.. and blow out the candles n make a wish..
does dat matters?


oh man..
and this agains reminds me of...
my primary school days..

i was one of those that always hung out with guys n girls.. i mean.. popular in class..
get along well..
den nearing november.. school always close b4 my birthday..
and there were many girls.. i think 3 or so.. girls that happen to have november birthdays..
17 and 18 november if i didnt remember wrongly.. well.. they also land on the holidays we had..


well.. the guys bought cakes.. and i had to run errands for them..
helping them passed the girls' presents to them (the guys were kinda shy)
accompanying them to the cake shop and collect the cake..
n even pocketed out money to buy..


well.. then they sing happy birthday song.. the bloody song..

so.. everything went well n nice..
the cake is nice..
the presents are nice..
the girls are happy..
the guys are happy..
i was happy then..

but secretly..

i always hated when this happens..

my birthday was so near to theirs..
but have they ever cared?

i never once recieved any presents from any of my classmates (during my primary school days)
i only give.. i dont received..
oh.. when i was secondary 1, a guy (i had crushed on b4) from my primary school class gave me a bear.. n i have always kept it..


n a girl gave me be.. a bear too.. actually.. unwillingly.. due to they need to spend 10dollars n above to get the big winnie the pooh bear thus ended up buying one stupid bear n claim to b my bday present..

for once.. i was delighted..
but now.. that was disgusting..


however bad it may be.. i m lucky enough to have my family to celebrate my birthday when i was young..
i guess family are always the best (though they forgot my last year birthday and i didnt get to blow that bloody candles off n make a wish n eat the creamy cake)
but still..



everything will turn out right?




i suppose..