FAMILY

I'm feeling a little emotional at the moment. Many things are going through my mind, and the most important factor is "Death".

"Death" is always a scary topic that I hate to touch on but has been going through my mind a million times. I remember when I was a teenager (though I am still in my 20, not yet 20s), I keep thinking what is "me"?

I always imagine as a person out of my "human shell" and visualising myself standing there, looking at "myself" doing what I am doing everyday.

What if one day, I die? What will happened to the people around me? What if one day, someone close to me die? What will happened to me?

I always never treat anyone good before, especially to my Family. I shout at my mum for getting on my nerves, asking me questions again and again and nagging me to do the housework for her. I tsk at my father for asking too many questions and asking me for a new handphone for him to use (as his was going to be spoil) and for sending me late to work and pretend to be asleep when he's asking me questions.

I bullied my sister to do all housework on my behalf and to take care of the dog. I even laughed at her and post her ugliest pictures in facebook.

I realized, I'm evil to my family.

Why can I be so nice and sweet to anyone else but not to my family? I am so wrong, extremely wrong in my own character.

What if one day, everyone disappear? There will be no one for me to ask "Meimei, is this outfit nice? Meimei, can you bring the dog down? Mummy, wash my clothes for me? Papa, bring me to work please?" and I'm all alone.

I can't imagine that, but I understand that one day, that situation will arise and be thrown directly to me.

How can I react? What can I do?

I don't want to live my life with regrets, I don't want to be grasping the empty air and cried myself to sleep.

And from today onwards, there must be a change in me. That's to treat my family like FAMILY, not like some unknown stranger I met on the road.

I LOVE YOU.