Ageing process

Today is mid-autumn festival. This used to be a look forward event for our family when I was still a kid.

Usually, our family will meet up at our grandparents' place and have a BBQ for all sorts of events. The kids (which refer to me+cousins) will always end the night with a tour around the neighbourhood with our brightly lighted lanterns.

I still remember we almost burned down the playground literally. And how once I met my schoolmates when we were having a brisk walk in the park.

Those were the days but it seems that when we grow up, everything changes.

The grass-patched park was torn down and replaced by concrete grounds. My grandparents moved and stay in with my uncle as the unbearable neighbour keeps disturbing them.

Now, the mid-autumn event seems like a chore to some of my cousins, finding it unnecessary to turn up even though grandmother has called several times. As I'm silently reprimanding them for their crimes, I myself am also guilty of being unfilial. I cringed too sometimes at the sound of the phone ringing, it's definitely my grandmother who is asking what time will we arrived at her place.

Today, I had the dinner as usual. But I found out something unusual this night. Grandfather's legs were as big as an elephant's. It seems that he has gotten some type of illness and it caused his leg to swell.

I'm still feeling kind of sad that I have neglected my grandparents so much and that the kids grew up too fast.

Mummy decided to take leave on Tuesday to accompany Grandfather to the polyclinic. I was reluctant to take leave as 1) I don't know if my leave can be approved 2) I'm afraid of not having enough leave anymore 3) Too many things piled up for me to clear at work

So I told mummy straight that I am not able to accompany her on Tuesday.

However, she struck me back with a question that I felt ashamed of myself, "Do you still remember that they (referring to grandparents) took the effort to come over and fetch you to the clinic the day when you were extremely sick?" [Refer to this post "Sick"]

Argh, shiat! Gotten me with that. Yeah, if my grandparents can take care of me when I felt extremely unwell, why can't I do the same to them?

So I made up my mind to take that day off on Tuesday.

I love you, my family.