If only...

Don't you always find yourself saying "If only I had done....... then....."

There are many instances in life whereby you will always look back and realise that what actions you have taken previously may seems silly or you regret what you have done.

I had one of such 'If only' situation yesterday too. I saw a kitten at my office last evening (8.15pm). It looks like a newborn kitten, eyes barely open yet. While waiting for a taxi, I head soft mews and was curious why would there be a mewing sound in the midst of a CBD area. It is offices everywhere and definitely not a good area for animals to roam.

As such, I followed the sound to find a kitten sitting on stones at the fake garden. It looks hungry and scared, unsure of why it was being there.

The first thought running through my head was what am I supposed to do? No one actually bothers to trace the mewing sound to see where the kitten is.

I felt really bad for it and wanted to go near it. But with another step I took, the kitten dashed its way under a pavement and I was unable to come in touch with it. In my burning heart, I seriously consider taking the kitten home but will any taxi allowed that? How should I carry it?

My taxi took a very long while to arrive (15minutes) and with each seconds ticking by, I keep seeing its little head peeping out of the hole, glancing at me. It looks helpless. To lure it out, I mewed at it. To my surprise, it took little steps to walk out of the hole.

However, I decided against risking to bring it up a taxi and not being able to reach home. I looked at it with guilty eyes and walked towards my taxi as the taxi arrives.

When I reached home, I told my mother the same story and I tried my luck to sound her opinion on having a kitten at home. My mother was all for it. And at the point, I regretted not bringing it back.

So for the whole night, I was wondering "If only I had brought the kitten home, then it would have been happier.."

But nonetheless, it is an action that I regretted not doing. Why is life so full of options.. I wish there is only one road to take and it will be the right one for everyone.

Making choices is definitely a tough decision every now and then because there's always "If only..."