i miss my ah ma..

sighs.. these few days i totally have no time at all..
i swear, i didnt even have time to breathe..

keep working my life away..
i paid 1k to teacher le.. still owe him another 1.5k.. :(

working my life out man..

i went sakae buffet the other day with x, x, x, x :)
damn fun, love these guy and gals..

^_^
bonding..
den the rest of the days are working.. especially father's day..
full, 10.5hrs, tiring >.<

sad to say, i nv celeb father's day..
in fact, i nv celeb my dad's bday b4..

i'm a bad daughter to him..
i grew up in a family where we dont express our love..
i dont know how to at all

i cant blurt out the words to them or shown concern..
all i ever did was to rebuke them.. and make them worried..

sighs..

and i really miss my grands..

i used to think that my cousins are ridiculous for not visiting my grands during the weekend.. or coming to our bbq-time on special occasions
*i see them during CNY and ah gong's bday only*

but now, i know why..
we are just too busy..
it's really an excuse..

but it's sadly, the truth..
i yearn so much to go and visit them, but even when i could, i just tell myself i'm too tired.. i can go next week..

but i never did..
i'm becoming a bitch that i once hated and thought i wouldnt be..

i wish i have more time.. or i wish i dont even need to study or work..

growing up is part of life's misery..

i hate the thing that i'm grown up now..
i want the child in me back..
*thou my colleagues still say i'm one -.-*

but we will nv be that little cute brat that everyone loves anymore..